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I'm not melancholy; I'm a happy-go-lucky girl, kind of silly. I like funny things. I love making people happy. I'm a self-confessed introvert, though. (:


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Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 9:27 PM


Anemia is a condition that occurs when the number of red blood cells (RBCs) and/or the amount of hemoglobin found in the red blood cells drops below normal. Red blood cells and the hemoglobin contained within them are necessary for the transport and delivery of oxygen from the lungs to the rest of the body. Without a sufficient supply of oxygen, many tissues and organs throughout the body can be adversely affected.

Anemia can be mild, moderate or severe depending on the extent to which the RBC count and/or haemoglobin levels are decreased. It is a fairly common condition, affecting both men and women of all ages, races, and ethnic groups. However, certain people are at an increased risk of developing anemia. These include people with diets poor in iron and vitamins, chronic diseases such as cancer, a family history of inherited anemia, chronic infections and those who have had significant blood loss from injury or surgery.

In general, anemia has two main causes:

1. Impaired or decreased production of RBCs as, for example, in iron deficiency, B vitamin deficiencies, and aplastic anemia

2. Decreased survival, increased destruction of red blood cells as in hemolytic anemia

Anemia may be acute or chronic. Chronic anemia may develop slowly over a period of time with long-term illnesses such as diabetes, chronic kidney disease, or cancer. In these situations, the anemia may not be apparent because symptoms are masked by the underlying disease. The presence of anemia in chronic conditions may often go undetected for a period of time and sometimes may only be discovered during tests or examinations for other conditions.

Anemia may also occur in acute episodes such as with certain hemolytic anemias in which a significant number of RBCs are destroyed. Signs and symptoms may become apparent very quickly and the cause determined from a combination of physical examination, medical history, and testing.

Signs and Symptoms

Though different types of anemias have different causes, the signs and symptoms can be very similar. Mild or moderate forms of anemia may cause few, if any, symptoms. The most common symptoms are:

1. A general feeling of tiredness or weakness (fatigue)

2. Lack of energy

Other signs and symptoms that may develop as the anemia becomes more severe include headache, dizziness, feeling of cold or numbness in hands and/or feet, pale complexion, shortness of breath, fast or irregular heartbeat, and chest pain.


I'M SOOO DEAD.

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009 @ 10:05 PM

People are not perfect and we don't always behave appropriately. Sometimes we wish we could take back all those hurtful words we have said. But the verdict is, this is not a PERFECT world.

Anxiety is the fear of being hurt or of losing something. Whether the fear is real or imagined, it FEELS the same. Between the two extremes, are feelings of being fearful, scared, edgy, jittery, concerned, worried, helpless, insecure, uptight, nervous, having cold feet, getting the shakes - all degrees of a feeling of uncertainty over one's personal safety.

I have an anxiety disorder sometimes (not BIPOLAR!). I just walk around deep breathing. But when it starts, I just feel like I'm having fun. I don't care if I get off on the notes, I'm just out there having fun.

Every morning, I puke out once the toothpaste enters the mouth and I don't know why. But it really sucks. Doctor? Dentist? Neither (Don't laugh, it's not meant to be funny!).

Pardon meeeee. Oh please. Gosh. This sucks. Big time. Fizah. I. Need. Your. Listening. Ears. We. Have. To. Talk.

Bye!

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Sunday, November 08, 2009 @ 6:29 PM


I happen to stumble upon this beautiful note about love, exclusively written by Suki Tong (Love Relations lecturer) on Facebook. And wow, it literally swept me off my feet and blew my senses away.

Undoubtedly awe-inspiring, this amazing piece below is sincerely, the real BOOMZ. (:


What is love? Is it some kind of feeling that captures our hearts and refuses to let us go? Or is it some kind of magical feeling that zaps us? Is it a warm feeling that grows over time between two people who trust each other, that no matter what happens, either will catch the other should the other person fall? Is it a painful feeling that rips our hearts apart when our lover hurts us? Why is love so sweet, yet at times it can be so incredibly painful? What is love? These questions have plagued many over the centuries - from musicians, to poets, to writers and philosophers.

We have experienced all the above feelings when we are in love. It's like falling over an abyss, where one just loses one's grip and control. At times we feel out of control. We feel the intensity of it. For some of us, when we experience such intense feelings, we run far away. It's scary, unfamiliar and very raw. It scares us because the beloved has come to mean a lot to us and we are so afraid of being hurt or pushed away.

For others, they create big dramas - they pick fights with their lover. Picking a big fight momentarily takes away that intensity. They scream and create a scene because they feel that's what love should be. Love, to them, is a big drama. They enjoy the adrenaline of a "low" ( screaming or quarelling) and "high" ( making up after a big fight). They walk away; pack their bags or make empty threats to their lover about walking away from the relationship in the hope that their lover would chase them and apologize profusely. It makes them feel wanted and in a warped sense, loved.

I am wondering - is there a middle path that we could adopt - that is, neither walking away nor creating big dramas? If there were a middle path, what would that be? Perhaps, we could consider the approach of a firm and spacious love - that is, creating space in a relationship, yet allowing the other person to be in our lives and in our space. This sounds like a paradox! Perhaps, we could open our hearts gradually. Allow ourselves to make mistakes in love - in that, sometimes we will do or say silly things that will hurt our partner.

I guess, the bottomline is lots of understanding, love, forgiveness and of course loads of humour. It's not easy. To allow someone into our space takes time. Give each other space to adjust to that. Be okay with the fact that sometimes you will take two steps forward and three steps back. Like a tango, we will take time. There will be many instances of stepping on each other's toes before we learn to really flow in the dance.

Meanwhile, just dance ...


Been having "matters of the heart" talks with Aaron the class dude these days and it has been mind-opening, really. Oh well, everything is a learning process, even when it comes to understanding guys and they way they think. Thanks man, I've gained the bits and pieces of knowledge about life from you.

My weekend was seriously the BOMB, having met up with my Genie darling on Friday night! And yep, guys again. Haha.

Chocolate and music indeed does release endorphins, my dear. And it intoxicates. Your soul.

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Tuesday, November 03, 2009 @ 9:22 PM


Get the picture?

Your intellect may be confused, but your emotions will never lie to you.

What is happening to ..... I wonder. I really do. But I've still got the BOOMZZZ thang going on yaw!

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Saturday, October 31, 2009 @ 9:57 PM


You try to make the best of everything, and then ....... you just break down and you cry.

It's one of those fragile moments when you have been keeping too much things to yourself, trying and trying to control your anger and fury, disappointment and heartache. You tell yourself to keep trying, trying but on the spur of it all, your eyes get warm in tears and ..... you break down.

To suddenly tear up and cry while having my lunch in sch yesterday was purely depressing and embarrassing, but I couldn't help it. I couldn't. I'm sorry. My raging emotions went overboard and I had to let go.

Let go.

Guess the happiest day this week was meeting my Yiru darling for dinner on Tuesday night, that's all. My good old girlfriends have never failed to cheer me up. I know you lovelies are always there for me, a phone call away, an sms away.

When the mask fades off, the real side shows, the heart reveals its sorrow and everything seems bleak. The malady I'm living in, words themselves can't speak.

I'm an emotional girl, but at the end of day, I'm still able to motivate myself and others around me.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

I need to sleep, badly.

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